Chika has confirmed that she’s “alive” after fans feared she’d died by suicide after a series of concerning tweets.
On Sunday, she reassured her 200,000 Twitter followers that she was safe and posted: “alive. wanna go home.” Over the weekend, she was in Minnesota and worried her fans when she told them that she contemplated jumping off the roof of The InterContinental Hotel.
Mental health is a topic that Chika frequently addresses in her lyrics, and her openness on the subject is a reason why her legion of fans have gravitated so strongly towards her.
Taking to Twitter, she explained: “i went to the top of the intercontinental, but could not jump. not because i don’t want to, but because the metal stairs were scary. that’s the thing about having a fucked up brain.
“no matter how much pain you’re in, there will always be something holding you back. it’s draining & sad. it looks like crying wolf, but it’s not. it’s just difficult to find the right way. the quickest way. the painless way. i am tired of myself too.”
She continued, “i don’t need anyone feeling bad or worried bc i failed the last time i tried. save your emotions for when I succeed.” After describing herself as a “cautionary tale of sorts [when no one listens],” she called her potential suicide as “eternal freedom.” She ended the post with, “No more typing. i’m going to finish my drink and find a way that works. thanks for the ride, i hated it.”